I don’t know about you, but when it comes to writing I am picky, picky, picky. I’m that person who goes to the bookstore to examine and analyze the beautiful stationery. I open the journals, feel the paper, study the lines and their spacing, then sniff the specimen to ensure that I will always long to open the book and fill it with words…maybe. I also find myself negotiating the size of the journal as I consider whether or not my resting hand will be comfortable as it comes to the ridge of journal where the page stack ends.
One time, I bought a smaller notebook so that I could keep it in my purse and carry it around with me so I could pull it out and write whenever the mood struck. Well, that didn’t pan-out for two reasons.
- It did not increase or improve the frequency of my writing.
- That small notebook was horrifying since the heel of my hand always felt as though it was plunging off a cliff as my hand came to the edge of the page.
What I’m actually trying to get at here is this…I’m attempting to relax a few of my ‘conditions’ for writing so that I’ll write with fewer ‘hang-ups’ and roadblocks. The current theory I’m going with is if my expectations are more relaxed and open, then I will write more consistently and more confidently. Now, this might sound so mature and enlightening…but really it is this flicker of desparation to just put pen to paper.
I am happy to report that I’ve started to relax these picky conditions for writing. For example, I have actually found a bearable degree of comfort with a 8.5×11 coil-bound notebook from Dollarama that cost me $1.25. There are only about 100 pages in it, but that has actually accomodated the heel of my hand since it no longer feels as thought it is plunging off a cliff as I get to the edge of a page. This notebook has a sufficiently pretty cover and since it’s coil-bound, I can easily pull a page from it without also detaching another connected page from the journal. See? Progress! These relaxed expectations might do the trick after all!
I must also confess that I’m picky, picky, picky about the sort of pen I write with. The pen must be so smooth that it glides aross the page with the same sort of ease that an eloquent figure skater glides across the surface of the ice. I think I wrote an entire blog post about my favourite kind of pen many years ago. Feel free to go back through my blog to find that post, about 7 or 8 years back if you like. LOL. I used to love the Bic Profile ballpoint pen. The width of the end was perfect, the ink was so smooth…no blotting, no scraping, no catching on the paper. Sadly, Bic no longer makes that pen. I had moved on to the Bic Glide or Bic Soft Feel. You see the other thing I have insisted on is using retractable pens. For one, I just find it so satisfying to push on the end to hear the click over and over again. Also, I have a thing about using the clip to secure the pen inside the coil of my journal, or to the cover.
I have more good news! I have kind of relaxed these high pen expectations…but I’m not sure I can stick with it for long. I bought felt-tip pens at Dollarama and I liked them at first because they did allow my hand write with ease and flow…but the scraping is driving me a bit crazy. I have tried a variety of pens, but I may have to just face it. The pen is not negotiable in this process.
There is one more thing that I have actually developed while experimenting with my journal writing habits and routines. I find I am so much happier when writing on the right-hand panel at all times. You know, the side that always has the fresh pad of paper under you. The side of the notebook that is barely touched and ready for ink. I hadn’t realized to what extent I loathed writing on the backside of a page that has writing on the other side until I stopped writing on the back side. LOL. Now this probably doesn’t seem like me relaxing the conditions for writing, but is in fact escalating them. However, in this case, I’m a happier writer when I get to write on the padded side at all times! So that’s good, right? That means I’ll write more and more often!
Well for now, things are going pretty well. I am in fact journal writing more consistently and feel the joy and accomplishment that goes with it. This morning I made coffee, grabbed my journal, and thought I would go for a walk then sit down at the picnic table to write in my journal at the park. But as I walked through the woods, I was drawn to a long, wide, downed tree with a single ray of sunshine bouncing off the bald tree trunk. In my mind I thought, Hmmmm, maybe I’ll stop
here to write. But I turned to leave since I really did want to get in a walk before I got to writing. However, I stopped again, approached that bald tree trunk, straddled over it and got my things ready. I opened my dollar-twenty-five notebook and pulled the lid off of my cheap pen. I started writing on the right-hand padded side of the notebook…and just kept on writing. And whatta-ya-know? I was so energized by my decision to write in that perfect spot, that when I came home I decided I would also write this post. That’s a pretty good day of writing 😉
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